Oct
11
2009
My 2004 Journals
Posted by: biojessic in article, tags: journal, learning, memories, mistakes, nursing, writingJust a few hours ago, my sister asked me to rearrange the contents of an old luggage. It contains nothing but school papers, notebooks and all the other stuff that I chose to keep as memories of my college days. So the rearranging meant that I had to remove a few items because the bag was too big for the space under my bed. So, I discarded a lot of papers that are really useless for me now. While I was doing this, I also checked the notebooks that I didn’t throw away yet. Three or four of those notebooks contain journals that I wrote 5 years ago. As I read it, I was amazed because I felt like a first year nursing student again. The grammar was not perfect but so is my memory. I cannot remember all things but I can always choose to write them down for my future self to reminisce. Here are a few notes that I’d like to share:
from a journal that was required from us by a clinical instructor: “…
That night, i changed the water of the flowers in the room of my patient. Then, while waiting for 8PM, the time when I’ll be getting the vital signs of my client, I cleaned the room and arranged the things of my patient. I also straightened out the bed sheet and the blanket. Then, I got his vital signs and after doing so, I asked him if he wanted to have a cleansing bed bath. He then refused, saying that he is experiencing chills. I also offered to cut his nails, but then again, he refused. So, I just wiped his face and skin with a dry cloth. Then I charted everything and copied some of the medications. By 9PM, we had our circle then we were dismissed.” (date written: Sept 24, 2004) —> reminded me of all the little things that we had to do as nurses. this is for me now who is not practicing her profession. i miss all the nail cutting and sweat wiping. my profession is a caring one indeed.
from a personal journal:
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…when you truly love, a second chance is always easy to give (May 12, 2004)
…it is very easy to find someone new but it is very difficult to find something real (May 12, 2004)
…there are many excuses that the mind can make but it us up to us to figure out what really needs to be done, even though there are actually many reason for us to just ignore it (May 12, 2004)
…for the things Lord that I do not need, you are free to take them away but please, please, give me the strength (7:41PM, May 14, 2004) –>until now, these lessons hold true for me. years have passed but i still yearn for my family to be happy. i still believe that forgiveness comes from a heart that loves the one who fell short of its standards. i still think that when you really want someone or something, nothing can hold you back from pursuing that object of affection– not even the fear of being rejected or disappointed. lastly, i really think that the Lord has the right to give and to take away things or people from our lives. we can only pray for strength because we know that His will is perfect but not always painless for us.
lastly, here’s a note from me last May 08, 2004 at 12:48AM
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