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I have read in another blog that taking pictures is not the only way to keep a record of what has been happening in your life. Writing is another way. It’s really amazing because only a few people realize that. I hope that my words won’t fail me now in my attempt. If God would allow me to live another year, then I would want to read this entry again when 2010 comes and look back at the old me.

Today is the second Monday of June and Jessica is jobless. Hours ago, I saw my payslip from Etelecare dated January 2008. The numbers there looked really impressive! It made me long for that feeling again of having something to look forward to every 15 days.  It also made me realize one thing– that He is a great provider. I have resigned from that company more than a year ago. Now, my heart is yearning for employment but my soul knows that He never left my side. Father, thanks for always being with me. I don’t know how You do it but Your ways are really mysterious and perfect!

It’s now 7:27 PM to be exact. I am waiting for results too– two to be exact. One would be for my IELTS exam and the other would be for my Schengen Visa. It’s like being in a valley– two mountains are blocking your view and you have to do some climbing. Climbing for me is fighting the urge to worry. I have read that when you worry about something that you can’t change, then that’s stupidity. On the other hand, when you worry about something that you can still change then why worry? When you can still change it. I can’t change the results now and I certainly don’t want to do something stupid. Just like the answer in the movie “Slumdog Millionaire”– it is written. Jaiho! God has everything prepared for me.

Before this month will end, I believe there will be a lot of surprises for me. I will be able to know if I did fine on the English exam and on the visa interview. But I know one thing– that He will never change. Whether it’s 2009 or 2010, April or June, AM or PM, jobless or not, approved or denied– I know that He is with me. 

ISAIAH 41:10– do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

It has been written and I leave it all to the Author.

When some doors swing open all you see inside is darkness. Only when you get inside that darkness do you realize that the light you’ve been given is on the inside. (theedgeradio.net)

One will never appreciate the cleanness of winter without first going through the rustling leaves of fall… just as one would not appreciate the colors of spring without first breathing in the whiteness of winter.  (davidabc13.multiply.com)

It is not what I do that matters, but what a sovereign God chooses to do through me. God does not want worldly successes, He wants me. He wants my heart in submission to Him. Life is not just a few years to spend on self indulgence and career advancement. It is a privilege, a responsibility, a stewardship to be lived according to a much higher calling, God’s calling. This alone gives true meaning to life. (Elizabeth Dole)

Knowing that I am not the one in control gives great encouragement. Knowing the One who is in control is everything. (Alexander Michael)

Can anything appear in us that was not anticipated by One who before taking us for His own possession sat down and counted the cost? Is there not comfort in knowing that your keel is caught by a current which emanated from the purpose of Him who worketh all things after the counsel of His own will, and is bearing you towards His heart? Oh, the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and the knowledge of God! How unsearchable are His judgements, and His ways past finding out! (Frederick Brotherton ( F. B. ) Meyer)

Friendship not only takes time, it takes a willingness to drop false expectations, of ourselves, of each other. Friends - or lovers - are not always available to each other. Inner turmoils can cause us to be unhearing when someone needs us, to need to receive understanding when we should be giving understanding. (Madeleine L’Engle)

You learn to speak by speaking, to study by studying, to run by running, to work by working; and just so you learn to love God and man by loving. Begin
as a mere apprentice and the very power of love will lead you on to become a master of the art. (Francis de Sales)

I just took my NCLEX last Thursday, February 5. I woke up very early since I was staying with my relatives in Quezon City. I arrived in Makati three hours before the time! I was not feeling well because we went to a wake the night before the exam. I slept at around 10:30PM and woke up 4AM. To those who will be taking the exam, please don’t follow my example.

So I stayed in Yellow Cab, People Support Bldg in Makati. I tried to read some facts in my small notebook but my heart was saying STOP. So, I stopped reviewing and just prayed hard. I knew the Lord was always with me. I knew He told me to just rest and leave it all to Him.

My friend said that I should just wait for 8:15AM before going to the exam site. I did what she said. When I arrived in Trident Tower, I was surprised that a lot of people were forming a line already. I had no choice but to wait and just leave it all to Him… again.

So everything went smoothly and I was done one and a half hours later. The computer stopped at the 75th question. I was so relieved and praised God the whole time even though the result was not out yet.

Just last night, I arrived from Manila and checked Pearson Vue. The result was not out yet. This morning, I read Psalm 23 while I was still in bed. THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD, I SHALL NOT WANT. I smiled because that was the verse that I wrote in the book that I used in reviewing. I checked Pearson Vue again after eating breakfast and there it was– quick result was ready. I paid for it and I saw it:

STATUS: PASS

JESSICA ANNE P. YGUINTO, RN, US-RN 

“Mighty to save.”
–Isaiah 63:1

By the words “to save” we understand the whole of the great work of salvation, from the first holy desire onward to complete sanctification. The words are multum in parro: indeed, here is all mercy in one word. Christ is not only “mighty to save” those who repent, but He is able to make men repent. He will carry those to heaven who believe; but He is, moreover, mighty to give men new hearts and to work faith in them. He is mighty to make the man who hates holiness love it, and to constrain the despiser of His name to bend the knee before Him. Nay, this is not all the meaning, for the divine power is equally seen in the after-work. The life of a believer is a series of miracles wrought by “the Mighty God.” The bush burns, but is not consumed. He is mighty to keep His people holy after He has made them so, and to preserve them in his fear and love until he consummates their spiritual existence in heaven. Christ’s might doth not lie in making a believer and then leaving him to shift for himself; but He who begins the good work carries it on; He who imparts the first germ of life in the dead soul, prolongs the divine existence, and strengthens it until it bursts asunder every bond of sin, and the soul leaps from earth, perfected in glory. Believer, here is encouragement. Art thou praying for some beloved one? Oh, give not up thy prayers, for Christ is “mighty to save.” You are powerless to reclaim the rebel, but your Lord is Almighty. Lay hold on that mighty arm, and rouse it to put forth its strength. Does your own case trouble you? Fear not, for His strength is sufficient for you. Whether to begin with others, or to carry on the work in you, Jesus is “mighty to save;” the best proof of which lies in the fact that He has saved you. What a thousand mercies that you have not found Him mighty to destroy!

From: C. H. Spurgeon’s Morning & Evening Devotional: 01/14/AM

Tonight, I read a lot of devotionals, articles and excerpts again. I had a great time learning from christian authors and of course, the glory goes to God– the center of it all. I placed here some of the nice thoughts that I read. It may not have a great impact on you but it sure made a lot of sense to me. We all know that God speaks to different people in different ways. We also have different things to deal with everyday. So, I am keeping these to remind myself of what I learned tonight. You may click the links (their names), if you want to read the articles or get to know who they are. I hope I can do this all the time so I won’t forget what God has reminded me about. This is also a great way for me to share His goodness and wisdom. If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. (James 1:5,KJV)

A season of suffering is a small assignment when compared to the reward. By: Max Lucado This tells me that trials are like seasons. They come and they go. They are temporary. Most of my worries today won’t matter months from now. God does not stop with the trials. He is just in the process of making all things beautiful. The results matter to Him. I matter to Him. Thus, the process is necessary. Difficult times won’t last long but the effects are eternal.  

Coach George Karl was sick to death at the collapse of his team.  When interviewed the following day, he said in essence, “I could not feel sicker.  Yet when I woke up early this morning and saw the sunrise, I knew it was going to be okay, and I was going to get through this.  The sun had still come up.”  From the devotional of Jeff Schreve. Hope. Hope. Hope. I am glad our God is a God of hope.

As we read the Bible, we should pray, worship God, speak to Him about our needs, and listen to His answers. This should be a time of communication between two spirits that sets the order of events for each day. By: Pat Robertson. Before we do anything.. Before we make decisions.. Before we make plans.. Before we begin anything.. We should speak to our Lord first. Again, I am not in charge. I am not my own. This means that I should not act as if I have no Master. There is a Guide and a Maker who longs to tell me, ” I know the way”.

If you think it’s all about you, and I think it’s all about me, we have no hope for a melody. By: Max Lucado This hits the nail on the head. This is the reason why some relationships don’t work. Whether it be a family or a couple, the point is to focus on God and make Him the center.