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I have read in another blog that taking pictures is not the only way to keep a record of what has been happening in your life. Writing is another way. It’s really amazing because only a few people realize that. I hope that my words won’t fail me now in my attempt. If God would allow me to live another year, then I would want to read this entry again when 2010 comes and look back at the old me.

Today is the second Monday of June and Jessica is jobless. Hours ago, I saw my payslip from Etelecare dated January 2008. The numbers there looked really impressive! It made me long for that feeling again of having something to look forward to every 15 days.  It also made me realize one thing– that He is a great provider. I have resigned from that company more than a year ago. Now, my heart is yearning for employment but my soul knows that He never left my side. Father, thanks for always being with me. I don’t know how You do it but Your ways are really mysterious and perfect!

It’s now 7:27 PM to be exact. I am waiting for results too– two to be exact. One would be for my IELTS exam and the other would be for my Schengen Visa. It’s like being in a valley– two mountains are blocking your view and you have to do some climbing. Climbing for me is fighting the urge to worry. I have read that when you worry about something that you can’t change, then that’s stupidity. On the other hand, when you worry about something that you can still change then why worry? When you can still change it. I can’t change the results now and I certainly don’t want to do something stupid. Just like the answer in the movie “Slumdog Millionaire”– it is written. Jaiho! God has everything prepared for me.

Before this month will end, I believe there will be a lot of surprises for me. I will be able to know if I did fine on the English exam and on the visa interview. But I know one thing– that He will never change. Whether it’s 2009 or 2010, April or June, AM or PM, jobless or not, approved or denied– I know that He is with me. 

ISAIAH 41:10– do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

It has been written and I leave it all to the Author.